Friday 7 October 2011

A word to those who have gone through it...


I have always wanted to write about this for a long time. Now that I am a proud mother of a little boy, I guess this is the right time to write about it. I am normally not the kind who write about the most personal details of my life, but I need to write about it because there are many out there who have gone through the same trauma as what I went through 2 years back.

Well, one of my friends back in India messaged me saying she suffered it too and asked me if I wanted to tell her anything about it as she knew I was once in the same situation as hers. It is for her and for all those who have gone through it. And I sincerely pray to God, that noone goes through it.

Miscarriage is the most common complication during pregnancy, and according to statistics, about 1 in 4 pregnancies end in miscarriages. In my circle of friends here, there are about 5 out of 15 ladies who have had miscarriages in the past. And all of them have healthy children now.

Yes, I was heart-broken for a while and still shudders at the thought of the whole experience. There are many out there who cares for me, and for them I put a straight face. I felt it was necessary to keep it aside so that it does not affect any of my relationships and live my life to the fullest. It's very essential not to feel frustrated.

As soon as I miscarried, I went to the GP here who was not at all interested to give a reference to a specialist. He kept on emphasizing that it's common and said there's no need for further investigation. Well, it really angered me and I walked off from his clinic, all ready to file a complaint. As soon as I reached home, I got the call from my GP saying he will give the referral! I got myself checked, did all the possible blood tests which turned out all normal. I was quite aware that most of the miscarriages will have no known causes, still I wanted to be sure. Please follow your conscience, and if you feel who have to be checked, go ahead so that when you are pregnant the next time, you know there is nothing wrong with you or your hormones..

My dad used to say all the time. "Keep aside all the negative thoughts and stay positive". I did. When I was carrying T, whenever I had bad cramps or whenever any negative thought crept in, I kept telling myself "It's all going to be fine, all your blood tests were normal, worry not". And I think it really helped me!

It was in August 2009 when I lost my first child. Though I was just 8 weeks pregnant at that time, I clearly remember seeing a tiny-being flickering when I had an ultrasound scan at 6th week. Life starts very early on. With this post, I would like to spread another message to STOP ABORTION as well. As I hold onto my little one, I just want to say life is precious...

Finally, have faith in God. He will answer all your prayers some fine day..And smile and stay positive!

8 comments:

  1. Anu, you have brought a tear to my eye.. Only a mother will know the pain and joy.. I wish you, nitin and T ony the best of life filled with lots of happiness and love! I am not a mother yet but let me thank you on behalf of all those who might have gone through it..! :-) Love you..

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  2. dear anu,
    i can only imagine what you mustve been through..it takes a lot of courage to get through a difficult situation like that and u did!!!!
    i too strongly support ur view on abortion.. to think that a mother could do that to a child voluntarily,is just inhuman!!!so yes, STOP ABORTION...
    wishing u and ur little bundle of joy all de happiness in de world.
    tc dear

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  3. Deepti j kadavan24 October 2011 at 04:16

    oh my god, u poor girl! Life can give u many more challenges. u have to learn from them. u have to be strong. It occured to me the last time i saw u. I was expecting u with a baby... Still, there r many more who doesn't know how precious this is...delaying or going for abortion.. sadly, they learn it the hard way. when I said i'm happy for u, i really meant it.

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  4. Thank you chinnu, geethu n deepti for the comments..

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  5. pooja premkrishnan24 October 2011 at 16:30

    Anu,i normally dont read blogs but this particular got me glued on to the screen and it was over whelming for me to read.. things alwes happen for a reason and i believe in it :) Faith in God helped u pull through the most difficult time of your life and u got the angel of your life T :) God bless you,nitin and T.. love you :)

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  6. anuchechi,remember wat BhagavadGeetha says;watever happened was 4 gud,watever happenes is 4 gud n watever happenes in the future'll also b 4 gud,so just have faith in God n he'll work wonders 4 u,also 4get all these things n njoy ur newfound happiness 2 the maximum..............

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  7. That's a beautiful thought and message Anu. Really nice of you to write such a post.Have a wonderful life with lil precious T.

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  8. thank u pooja, cheenu n sumi...

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